Hoooo boy. The hyperfixation is real. How come brains do that? is it always such an obvious defense mechanism against negative feelings? I find it harder to get zoned in like this when I'm stressed, but the more emotionally turbulent my brain is, the stronger the urge to find something to invest that energy in no matter how stupid it happens to be. I'm just killing time, which is synonymous with wasting it, in my world.